Its 79 degrees on Kauai right now. sigh.....I will be there again someday. I hope its with Rick.
I have much inflammation right now in my stomach. Who knows why this time. At least Im back on my Humira injection schedual again. This time and the last time I have had no rash at all at the injection site. hooray.
Its been a weird couple of weeks. Good stuff happens and then icky stuff happens like the raccoon incident. Now I am mad at the Animal Control people or the city , whichever is responsible. Its a trickle down effect in politics.
I got to visit my friend this week and we worked on jewelery pieces together and we (my daughter came with me and visited with my friends son because they have been friends since middle school) stayed for dinner and it was a wonderful visit. We were trying to get together all summer long and wow....it was difficult. I was on a trip then she was on a trip then she was sick or really tired and I was tired or sick or had a flare and she had a flare (yes we have the arthur club in common) she had dr. appointments etc. and then finally we got together. It was really good to see her. She helped me finish a chunky turquoise and copper bead necklace I will be posting pics of on my deviant art site. I am happy with the way it turned out and I will be making matching earrings to go with it.
Yesterday my daughter and I went to the beach and did nothing but lay on the beach on the sand and watch the clouds and seagulls and crows. Sucking up those last rays of summer sun. Today the weather was warm and beautiful but I know the rain is coming and going to set in and the dampness and I start dreaming about moving to Arizona or better yet just go to Hawaii and just live out my days there. Just swim in warm waters everyday and paint and draw and have fresh coconut milk. I know every year and I have known for a long time, even when I was young that living here was not good for my health and I was right but its worse now that I have the PsA and fibro....along with the SAD. grrr.
but here we are. I will defiantly demand that my drs. help me out with the pain management if it gets as bad as it did last winter. I am grateful to dandlyons for sharing info with us and his point of view that we deserve to get the help we need from our drs. because we have contracted them to care for our health. I am bad at asking for help from them because now after 12 years of runaround and frustration and drugs ruining my body as much as the diseases, I just dont like to go anymore. I just get sick of so many appointments etc.
I will be getting back to my swim therapy which is my happy place. But it doesn't help much with the weight loss in my opinion. I have never been over weight my whole life and now in these past 5 or 6 years???!!? ack....I can hardly look at myself in the mirror or in a picture or when I walk by a window reflection!! I think "who is that person??" sigh..... But I move on and I am still that svelte active, energetic girl I used to be but in my mind.
It makes me sad when I run into someone I haven't seen in awhile or someone comes to visit us that I haven't seen in years. That short second... that look in their eyes when they see me. Oh well. Whine whine.
If I could just keep myself from curling up in a ball and hibernating this winter. I am going to think about the things I always look forward too. Family birthdays are coming up. Hallows Eve is coming with a party to go to at my friends house. Thanksgiving. The Hobbit movie is a family affair that will be fun to go to. Christmas here with my mom and step dad visiting and a Christmas dinner with deserts and warm toddy's by the fireplace watching a huge log that Rick picked out just for the day to burn
. And trying to keep this old geriatric kitty warm as he jumps from one lap to the other to suck body heat from us all.
Maybe I will be visiting my girl friend and her husband who lives on Lake Havasu. She has invited me to come down for a visit. January or February is a good time. I wonder what the weather is like down there at that time of year??