I went in for my check up week before last and I’ve been on Enbrel for 6 months now. I’ve seen little to no improvements, so my rhuemy is changing me to Humira and staying with the Duexis 2-3 times per day. We discussed that over the last 2 months, my pain and stiffness have been as bad as ever, with my hands, feet and lower back already hurting when I wake up in the morning and “sleeping” for 8 hours gives me no feeling of rest when I wake up in the mornings. I asked him if I had too high of expectations that the pain and stiffness would “go away” if we found the right treatment and he said that 25-50% improvement is great and 75% would be something to celebrate. I like my dr, but needless to say, hearing this for the first time 2 years in didn’t do much for my current mental state.
After 2 years of taking meds, I guess I thought that I would be at a better place, but honestly I feel more lost, scared, frustrated, exhausted and angry today than the day i was given the diagnosis AND I don’t really feel any better physically. Lately it’s getting harder and harder just to get through a day. It’s harder to focus on things, get anything done and I constanly forget things. I’m mentally and physically exhausted and I’m losing hope that I will find a treatment that will actually change the way I feel. Is this the normal course??
Sorry if I seem all over the place, I just don’t know how to collect my thoughts, or how I’m supposed to feel? I just want to drive to work one day that I don’t feel like I need to flip a coin to decide to to pull over and sleep or cry during my 2 hour commute :o(