Denied. Again

Just got the letter in the mail. My disability appeal was denied. I.AM.JUST.SO.DISGUSTED. It seems like my health is spiraling down, and I just can't get a break. I was really holding out hope that it would be approved so I can get insurance so I can start seeing a real doctor instead of the idiot at the clinic who denies the existence of PsA. Not to mention, that little bit of money that I would get would go a long ways towards keeping us in the black, instead of robbing Peter to pay Paul every month. I don't understand it. Not at all. Even the Oklahoma Department of Vocational Rehabilitative Services claims I'm unemployable. What do they think, there is some kind of conspiracy between my Rheumy, the ODVR, and I to lie and claim what little bit of Social Security I've paid into since I was 15 can do for me??? Jeez!

So now I begin the LONG waiting process to enter into the administrative law process. According to my attorney, it may well be a year before I ever get to that point. Another year of not knowing what is going to happen next. Another year of struggling to pay bills and keep food on the table. Another year of dealing with a Rheumy in 1 state, and me in another. This just sucks.

And now that we've added diabetes and high blood pressure to the mix (in addition to the PsA, PA, IBS, AS, and God only knows what else), I'm having to buy new meds and have to completely alter what I cook and how I eat, grrrrr!!! Forgetting to eat in the mornings is no longer an blood sugar drops too fast and too far with the morning meds and I get all woozy, cranky, and stuff.