Hey Nicole, and welcome.
There are lots of really great people here and plenty of information too. Have you had a chance to look at our Newbiesā Guide yet? Thereās a link to it on the left hand side of the home page.
Youāre in what we call āThe Gapā around here: that exceptionally difficult time when youāre reeling from the diagnosis, and looking for a treatment that works. Most of us have been there, and some of us have spent quite a long time on the quest for something that works. But take heart: almost everyone gets through dreaded gap, and comes out the other end feeling a lot better that they were. I know itās hard to believe right now, but itās true.
So youāre on MTX now. Does your rheumatologist have you on folic acid as well? I think you should probably ring the nurse and tell her about your mouth sores: if you are on folic acid, they may want to up the dose. If not, they may want you to start taking it. Folic acid (and drinking plenty of water) does help control the side effects of MTX.
I think you know that pacing is essential for people like us, but itās much easier said than done. And it takes a lot of trial and error to get it right. Even then, itās a moving target. The trick is to pace very consciously and deliberately. Alternate physical tasks with mental work. Alternate busy days with less busy. Say no. No to others as well as yourself. You need to get through the gap, and when you do, things will get easier.
Just wondering about something you said: why does it take you two hours to get ready to leave the house? Is it because youāre feeling the way I used to: tired, aching, stiff and very slow and sluggish for the first two hours of every day? If so, please be sure to tell your rheumatologist about that: s/he may decide to give you a short term rescue remedy.
Working with PsA was very difficult, Iāll make no bones about that. Everything I did required an awful lot of self-talk and steely determination. The thing was, though, that I was undiagnosed at the time: my doc didnāt think there was much wrong with me that a healthy diet and exercise couldnāt cure. Finally, I was too tired and too sore (and I thought too old) and I retired from a career I loved. Several miserable years later, I was diagnosed. These days, out of the gap and on really effective treatment, I feel better and have more energy than I did fifteen years ago. And still, I need to be very careful about pacing myself. But life is good again. And it will be for you too.