Stopping by to introduce myself this morning...
Warning: I am finding it very difficult to be upbeat lately. Don't let me depress you. I'm normally not like this!
I was officially diagnosed with PsA last week. I'm 33 years old. Looking back, I can now see the last few years of aches and pains that I always thought were normal were actually not... but it was about 6 months after my second daughter was born that everything kicked up into something that could no longer be ignored. After my primary doc couldn't find any obvious reason for my pain and fatigue, he sent me off to meet my rheumatologist. About 8 months, labs, a few Xrays and an MRI later, here we are.
I've been on meloxicam 15mg for about a month now. It helps very little, but little is better than nothing. I'm starting to get stomach pains though and I worry it's from this. I take tylenol too. My rheumy is recommending I start on a biologic (preauthorization pending for Humira) because the majority of my pain and stiffness is in my spine and SI joints. I am hopeful, but nervous.
I'm having a difficult time, of course physically, but also mentally and emotionally. I've read that depression is fairly common, and I am on an antidepressant (and have been for several years). I have 2 small children at home, one of which has special needs, and my husband is out of work. I work full-time, and that means painful days for me - but it does keep me moving. And for now, it keeps the bills paid (mostly).
The constant pain is exhausting, and the mental fatigue is maddening. I can't remember things from one minute to the next and concentration for any prolonged period of time is near impossible. The rheumy fellow on my case said I may have "some fibromyalgia" too. Very offhanded and nonchalant. Yeah, the compassion isn't great in that office. Pain meds are very difficult to get around here. I'm not sure how else to express to my doc that I am suffering. They already make me feel like a drug seeker. However, due to my insurance, I'm stuck with them unless I can get the money to pay the higher out of network copays. I've found hot showers and heating pads help a little. Walking the dog and playing with my kids help loosen me up some too, though lately these things are getting much, much harder.
I'm hoping for improvement. I hope this negative cloud passes as I learn to deal with things a little more gracefully. If anyone has any advice, I'm all ears! If not, then I'll just wave hello and wish you all a pain-free day.
~Sia