Yes, baklu, we’re here. One of the great things about having an international community is that there’s almost always someone here. I think Poo’s suggestion about showing this post to your doctor (or whoever your first point of contact with medical care is) is a great suggestion. Sometimes it’s just easier to write it down than it is to say it out loud.
It sounds like you might be suffering from what a great many of us here have: depression. Click here to have a look at a discussion about it.
Let us know how you are today!