For a socially awkward person, you’re sure nice to have around!
Yes, your story does sound like the “real thing”, and I think that you’re lucky to have had a diagnosis so early on. Have you managed to avoid joint damage? I hope so.
I know exactly what you are saying about “just” … “just” exercise, just eat right, just cook organic whole foods, just get enough rest, just go swimming once a week. Oh yes, JUST! And if you just can’t do it, well then is it any wonder you ache? Yes, I know that psychology, and I know how it contributed to my self-doubt and eroded my feelings of self-worth. Try to look at the things you DO do, and give yourself credit. You have a chronic, painful disease and you go to work. You take the train (good for you!). You stay in contact with family. You are independent. YAY YOU!
You talk about your psychologist. One of the things that we know happens with psoriatic arthritis is depression. Inflammation from this wretched disease can actually get into your brain. Nothing is safe, I tell you! Have you ever thought of going to see a psychiatrist? I finally bit that bullet eighteen months ago, after avoiding encounters of those kinds for years. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be, and I have to admit that my brain is in much better shape than it has been in a very long time. I had suffered from depression for decades, and never really got it under control. The psychiatrist said “you know, when you have PsA, you’ve come by your depression very honestly”. He suggested tredatment, got it right in one go (after years of messing around with a bit of this and a bit of that) and I’ve not looked back. Think about it.
Well, you’ve certainly made yourself at home, and you fit right in! We’re glad you’re here.