Lack of mother

Just another topic we can discuss and analyse, while it doesn’t bother me most times, and in fact I can even not think about it, sometimes it really hurts that my mother doesn’t want anything to do with me or my kids. While she has always been like that except when they were very little, and she was always on and off with me until I hit 19 then I was totally out, it is still really hard knowing she is like four blocks away, loves my sister and her kids and does anything for them. I know it isn’t my fault but that makes it worse not better. I have been sick for years and even that is not enough to care. Yes I know she is probably most likely has a few un diagnoses mental issues, I can’t put that upon myself as an excuse, as she loves my sister